So Hard

I feel bad for my wife and son. Its like I cannot provide for them. I feel bad ever time my wife has to stop breast feeding because someone from my family comes into the living room, which is where we are staying right now at my moms house, and wants to watch TV or get on the computer. It is not fair to her and my son. It makes me feel like I am not the best person for her. I know I give her and him more love than anybody else could, but the deserve so much more. That is the biggest problem my back  is causing. It is like i am going into depression over these issues. I stay up all night worrying about money and what to do. Any body else have this issue? Any thing you suggest to help with these feelings?

My Life

I am going to start out telling my reader why and what I am "venting" about. I have very bad back problems. I cannot work, my backs hurts 24/7 and will not stop. I cannot get much sleep due to my back. I have 7 bulging discs and several deteriorating discs as well. Now where I do not work this is what makes it very hard for me. I have always been a very hard worker before all these problems with my back started so it is a big change going from working 80 hour weeks to take care of my family, to not working at all and not being able to take care of my family. I have had to move me and my wife, and now our newborn baby into my mothers house due to lack of money to pay for rent. I have drained our like savings since I have been hurt. Nothing left. Nothing left for me to finish college or pay rent or anything. This is what I am venting about. Now I have my wife to talk to, and bless her heart she is always listening to me complain. But she dies not understand fully the way i feel, And why I am making this blog. Anyone out there with the same problem? Similar Problem?

Hello

Hello and welcome to my blog. I am creating this blog so i can have a place to vent lol. I am 21 years old and me and my wife just welcomed our baby boy into the world on july 24, 2011. for privacy I am not going to post my name on the blog, But you can call me bud. Please feel free to join my blog and post your coments. Thanks, all.